Mar 10, 2009

I've lost it . . .

. . . I've finally lost the flu bug. Good news.

Bad news. I think I've temporarily misplaced art. I cannot find it. I haven't made anything for 3 weeks and I have put off trying a few days even though I've had the chance cuz I didn't know where and how to start - I just haven't even really wanted to make anything, which is very strange for me. I tried today and it seems all of a sudden I CAN'T make anything. I can't get inspired, I can't even fake it. I've tried to cut out some pieces and get something started and it's gone, just seems gone. Nothing seems right. I am empty and a little panicky about that idea. I've been looking at other work trying to get inspired and I can't even find a spark to start with. I can't process an idea in my head, I am totally and completely overwhelmed and lost even trying to just find a background or image to use. 3 weeks ago the house could have burned down around me and I could not quit working and now I can't even get started. I hope art finds me again soon! I'll keep looking for it. It has to be around here somewhere.


Kim Mailhot said...

I am sure you will find it again soon. Don't forget you have been giving out a lot of yourself for the past few week. Maybe it is time to just fill up Marsha for awhile !
Sometimes when I don't know what to do in the studio, I just take out the paints and a huge stack of different papers and play with paint. Slapping paint around, using rubber stamps and stencils, spatter painting, etc... I often end up with gorgeous background, I get to play with color without really worrying about end results and I at least feel like I am being creative !
Be gentle with yourself, Marsha! You are an artist and your muse will return soon, I know !

Suzan Buckner said...

OMG, are we connected at the lowest brain cell level or what?? It's been about 3 weeks since I have done anything--and can't seem to get going again. I didn't even have the flu as an excuse!!!!

glad you are feeling better, and that you are home!!

BlueRidgeLady said...

I'm just so glad you are feeling better! I went down the other night and tried to come up with something for Crowabout....nnnnnuthin! It is very frustrating and so strange how sometimes the ideas are popping out of our heads from all directions and other times our heads are empty. Your mind has been on different things lately and maybe you are distracted and don't even realize it. It will come again soon and probably in a big way! Hugs to ya!!

Terri Kahrs said...

It's so good to hear your "voice" and know that you've weathered the flu bug.

No wonder you can't find your Muse! You've been through some rough stuff and are mentally, spiritually and physically depleted. You've been giving to everyone else - now it's time to give yourself some love. Kim's advice is on target - Be gentle with yourself and give yourself time to heal. In no time at all you'll be wowing us again.
BIG Loving Hugs!
Your Path Buddy!

Cha Cha said...

I'm adding my voice to the chorus here. You need to fill your bucket before you can dole out water to everyone else. And whether we admit it or not, caring for a parent is about as emotionally draining as it gets.

Maybe getting the flu was your body's way of finding an excuse to lay about. Listen to your body. And listen to your spirit ... your muse will pop up when you least expect it. In the meantime, just be kind to yourself.

Sending you giant hugs!

aliceinparis said...

I'm glad you are feeling better! Don't worry about the Muse. She's taking a wee nap, that's all. She'll wake up when you are rested and ready:)
Cheers, Shelagh

roc said...

what will be will will be and then it will some other darned thing. no worries. no judgements. just be. we all have highs and lows and it's part of the process. just enjoy the place you are at right now.

Anonymous said...


It has happened for a reason. It is so you can focus on getting your Etsy back up and running. As soon as you do that, your muse will be back!

Cathy Mendola aka pinkbirdgirl said...

Sorry you're not feeling the creative urge, but glad you are recovering from the nasty flu bug.
Your body and mind have been through alot lately and you just need some 'down'time. It will come back soon.
In the meantime, check your last posting where I left you an award!
Maybe that will spark your muse.

Tace said...

Awww, it's sucky when going through a muse-less dry spellish patch, creatively speaking. BUT, 3 weeks ago you hadn't just gone on a long, stressful trip, gotten the flu and been looking after your dad. I think you are just tired, maybe not physically but mentally. Happens to all of us. My husband has said sooooo many times to me, "Take a vacation from your problems." If art isn't happening and it's stressing you out then treat yourself to something fun, good shows, good books, lurking the ice cream aisles of the super markets until frostbite threatens. :) GREAT BIG smiles from me.

MaryEllen said...

Hi Marsha!.
Thanks for your post! so nice to hear from you as always. I'm so glad you're feeling better, and I hope your dad is too.
You described it perfectly, when your sitting there.. nuthin.. and when you should be doing other things, you can't stop.
when I'm at work, all I can think of is the art I'm going to make when the weekend comes. I'm doodling, and jottind down Ideas, then when the weekend finally arrives.. ehhh.. not so much. But it happens, and I don't worry about it. Maybe our muses have Spring fever too!